Waiting For U...

How to live without u & what's life without you
My days are going prolix & my night too goes lonely
I am tired of walking alone as there is no fun anymore
The desire for your company has started burning

Though your hand got slipped out of mine somewhere
But I know our hearts r still bound by some sinewy bond
I am always there for you through thick and thin
And I will always be there with u exhilarating to win

Oh dear, if some day u feel alone while there is no one with u
Then don't ever worry, just turn around & look behind u
U can find me right there waiting 4 u only for you
Where u left me earlier in the race of time

I will wait for you with hope & aspiration in my heart
No matter how far you are or where you are
I won't forget you & keep u in my heart forever
Coz’ my feelings are still secluded and in search for your soul

I will be waiting for you to feel your pacific touch
To hear your Musial voice & to get your magical hug
No matter when or how soon you will come back
But I'm still here, still waiting for u to finally be mine

Oh dear, life without you has become very pathetic
Neither anyone can take your place in my life nor will I let anyone to
I miss u so much & I need u badly 2 manage my living
I want your company very much in order to get my life back

I believe that you will come back to me someday to make me intact
We will remove the barbwires of misunderstandings together
And will walk together again & loose ourselves completely in each other
Hence at I am waiting for you anxiously & will always be waiting… only for u

...Rain

Once again the sky has started mutating its color
And it's going to be very gelid tonight
The swallow on some tree seems so happy
And the drops are going to hug the soil tight

There is no rising summer dust anymore
Sooner everything around will be wet
No one will be thirsty & nothing will be arid
Happiness will spread its carpet, there won't be late

There it has already started lightening in the sky
With huge sounds of thunder, clouds are playing tricks
With the comely & glittering stars on such a full-moon day
The moon was very busy in its hide & seeks

I saw the rain coming down, I heard it falling
I couldn't help it anymore & stepped out
To steal some moments from such a beautiful evening
To get a soft touch of rain, I just broke out

I wanted to be loose myself completely in this rain
I developed a desire 2 play with paper-boats once again
Like a small child jumping into mud puddles joyfully
I went crazy & my heart started dancing with my steps

I stood in the middle of its pouring, stretching my arms
Closing my eyes I tried to drink all of the rain
Making love with it I wanted to give a tight clasp like my love
With the touch of it I tried to forget all my growing pain

I thought, what is the use it if I cry for my pain
I know tears won't ever stand with this rain
Coz' drop of Tears don't differ from raindrops
Moreover if I’ll think about my wounds I might go insane

I wondered...Does god really have a reason for it
Why it rains, is it because god is sad?
Do the god himself has got some pain
Is it all the tears with him, which he had?

Whatever, this rain gave me another reason to smile, a reason to live
Gradually, the sky became clear & it was about to stop, the rain
But it left a foot print of those desires & pleasure
That came 4 a very short span into my heart's lane

Thus was my night drenched with some precious feelings
And with the slight, silky & supernal touch of rain on my face
I heard it whispering my name on the wind
And I heard it making a promise... to return again…

...Silent Scream

Sometimes when it pains a lot

& I tend to lose my patience

I want to cry but even my eyes run out of tears

There are no more tears left to drain my pains out

I want to shout at the peak of my voice

But no more strength to even utter a word

It happens when I want to abuse such a life

But there is no more time left with me to live

Whenever I wanted to lose some burden of my heart

I had no one closer enough to share with

What prohibits me to share my pain & my tears

Is it the fear to lose some of my treasures of feelings

This always happened to me that whenever I dream something

I have to keep away of that in reality, why this be so

Can’t I complain, don't I have rights to dream

Then why shouldn't I be rebellious why should I be silent

As I never grumble about my grief

It always has becomes the blight of my life inside me

The pain always brings a piercing cry

A silent scream always trembles my world & brings disaster for me

What Do I Expect From Life ???

What have I lost & what have I got
Whatever I had with me, today that has been lost
What I wanted 2 achieve & what have I got
Where is my destination
Where am I going?
Am I going on the right direction?
Thinking over these makes my mind more confusing
Am I happy with what I have?
If not why not
What else is there that I do lack
What makes my nights sleepless?
What is there that comes to mind always
What are my dreams & what my desire is?
Did I ever tried to get what I want from my life
Though I never asked for a lot of things to my life
I don't know why life has always begged a lot from me in return
Though life gave me a lot of good friends & a caring family
I have been brought up well & I have every reason to be happy
But what prevents my happiness to hug me
What is the reason, why I am sad today?
Why I am not happy why I can’t enjoy any achievement
Why at every step I move ahead I find something missing
What is there that makes me realize something is missing there
Am I waiting for some1 else or something else???
Unless I find what exactly my goal is, how I can be able to hit my target
So these days, I am in search of something that will be everything for me
How to get it, how to make my wishes come true
Have my fate preserved those for me or I have to yield it?
I am trying to find out what exactly I need
& what's more do I expect from my life...

I Hate... Myself

I lyk everybody, I luv somebody
I believe nobody but still do trust somebody
To d worst limit of my emotions
There’s some1 I have & I hate somebody

The one I hate till d date is someone
Whom I am trying 2 luv since long, very long
It’s none other than me, it’s myself only
Who has made my lyf a very sad song

I hate my soul for living a lie, living in illusion
For every false & artificial smile on my face
I hate myself 4 every shit that I find in me
I don’t lyk this life filled with emptiness, incompleteness

I hate myself for being something that I am not
In fact, I hate my heart for being just a fake
I hate god for still keeping me alive
Coz’ I am ashamed of every breath I take

I hate myself for not hating d one I should hate
I hate 2 think about myself & I hate to hear my name
I don’t hate people for not loving me anymore
Rather I hate myself for still loving them

I hate myself for always doing those things
That I never wanted to do, that I never tried to do
I hate myself 4 trying to make those things mine
Those which are not at all made 4 me, which can never b mine too

They say that some1 who loves can never hate anybody
I have an ocean luv for my people whom I am blessed with by my fate
But still could not preserve a single drop of it for myself, not yet
U knows what…that’s why I am still confused whether I love or I do hate…

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